You don’t See it until you See it

Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law….Psalm 119:18

God has amazing plans for all of us! Those plans are beyond our comprehension. Those plans most times cannot be found without deep relationship with Him. You just don’t see it until God opens your spiritual eyes. There may be things in our lives that prevent us from seeing God’s perfect will. People can tell you until they are blue in the face, but you won’t see it until you want to face the truth, which can be found within. What you can’t see is preventing you from being who God called you to be.

Coming to this understanding looks different for everyone. Each situation and circumstance is different.  

It takes full surrender and full submission to the Holy Spirit to really see it. In the end, its an invitation to 

a deeper relationship with the Lord. Its an invitation to full reliance, and trust in God. Don’t feel bad if

you do see it and can’t see your way out and not sure about what the next steps are. This is something

that only God and wise counsel can walk you through. Be encouraged that this is all part of your story and your journey to a deeper relationship with the Lord and a greater YOU. Everyone has a battle. Everyone has a struggle. We all need our Savior, Jesus Christ. You just won’t see it until you want to see it. When you finally see it, His Power is able to heal and destroy the yoke that wants to keep you bound. You will then be free to utilize the new vision available to you. You will be able to help someone else who may have the same struggle. Your journey is not only for you, but its to assist or prevent others from going through the same struggle.

My biggest testament of coming to the realization that I was not “seeing properly” was my marriage journey. I want to focus on the person I was at that time. I was damaged and my sense of self-worth was extremely low. I accepted my situation because I thought that was the best I could do. I really wanted to be married and have children. I didn’t realize the extent of my childhood trauma and how it affected the decisions I made in regards to love and who I marry. I couldn’t see that my trauma impaired my view of love and my self-worth. What I perceived to be love, was just lust. That’s why we need our Savior to lead and guide us into all truth. We can’t lead ourselves into all truth, especially when you’re broken and have unresolved trauma. I had to do a lot of self-evaluation and prayer on my healing journey.

What you envision affects how you see. Prior to getting married, my sole focus was to be married and

have children. I was oblivious to seeking healing and seeking the Lord’s purpose for my life. I thought I

knew what was best for me. I couldn’t see that my priorities were backwards. I convinced myself being married was the solution and I would make it work. I couldn’t see that I was not whole. God in His grace and mercy allowed my stubborn behavior to introduce me to the healing I needed to truly see me. Basically, I reached a low so low that I had no other choice but to finally see that I had to get out and seek healing. The lows included infidelity throughout the marriage and disrespect. It was like being wounded repeatedly with no hope of healing. I couldn’t believe the life I was living, but I didn’t know how to fix it. I couldn’t see my way out of it. Its unfortunate that it took such a devastating experience for me to finally see, but the Lord will allow whatever is necessary to save and heal you. This life transforming event catapulted my journey to healing.

As I embarked on this path to healing, I gained so much understanding regarding self-worth, what Love truly is, and God’s purpose for my life. At that time, I just couldn’t see my value, God’s bigger purpose for my life, and who I am. My prayer to God was, “Open my eyes so that I may see”. Ending that marriage was my bravest move. It was a step towards freedom for myself and acknowledging that I have value and that God had more for me than I could ever imagine.

I am learning who and what love is through God, my relationships with family and friends. Love is not toxic! Love seeks to elevate and not to tear down. There is purpose in love. Love is beautiful, patient, kind, and God. God is the essence and the totality of love. I am so happy to finally accept this truth and to be in a deeper relationship with my amazing Creator! He will open your eyes to see if you want to see. I hope this helps you on your journey.

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